4 Sept 2020, 12:37

@Lee-White Thanks for asking, Lee.
Not sure this is burnout, but;
When I was younger(about 40yrs ago), family and friends wanted me to draw them, portraits, caricatures.
That hasn't ended. Plus, "can you draw me a tattoo design?" And other stuff.
And for free!

Then, in my teens, "you should be a caricature artist". Stuff like that.

And now I have a portfolio with caricatures and stuff. But, it's totally useless for any other market.
Yes, I can draw and paint using different media, and with a not bad level of quality.
But, AD's and other people don't see it like that.

So, yeah I'm working on changing my portfolio completely. I get that!
And I feel like I'm a beginner here, learning a lot. I'm happy with that.

Yesterday, I got the courage to talk with a gallery. The lady was very generous, and gave me lots of her time, and knowledge.
There's a ranking system for painters in Japan. So, that puts me at the low end.
She also told me(and I've heard this before), there are hundreds or more artists that can do similar paintings.
So my chances of sales are slim.
Kind of a nice reality check.

I have options. And I'm into making opportunities happen.
As an event artist, the pandemic has destroyed this year for me.

I still have energy. But, I feel like there's a mountain to climb. And, I WILL climb it!
I feel really burned out!

Cheers!