Anxiety in the Studio

Thanks,Sorry, I didn't mean to come off sounding needy, I mean I'm still drawing, it's just one of those things that comes up every now and then that I wish didn't . I think it happens when I'm trying too hard. No, when it comes up I like to go back to the fundamentals sketching shapes, inking and stuff. I did watch Jakes video on creating a product, a self generated personal project resulting in a tangible product. I get it and it's confronting too. What comes up for me is what do I feel strongly enough to say. Kind of like writing, like what's the theme,what do you want people to take from your work. I think that's what I want to get clear about what do I feel strongly about enough that it would carry me through doing a larger project.

RHirsch

If you're anything like me, the difficulty in starting a piece (versus just drawing character sketches and the like) is the fear of it not turning out the way it looks in my head. It's easier not to start or to push it off then risk disappointment in how it turns out as a finished piece and feeling like a failure. This fear of projected failure really held me back a few years ago, and I found myself procrastinating constantly. But I'm not getting any younger here, and I believe the best way to combat this kind of anxiety is to discover the root of it, name it, and work through it. I like to try to approach my work as I did when I was a kid, at least the spirit of childhood creation. I didn't worry about all this stuff when I was eight, I just drew it. If it didn't turn out the way I wanted, I drew it again without coming down on myself for it's imperfections. I don't know if this helps you or not, but maybe it'll help knowing you're not alone.

MOO

I'm the opposite. I need to fill more notebooks and improve on my skills but I jump into making books. I do learn a lot but it takes a long time because I don't have certain skills in the first place. My plan is to work on my skills a while before I start my next personal book project. I'm way behind in drawing everyday.

@rhirsch Brilliant, yes, thank you for sharing. Being able to distinguish it is the first step in breaking it up. Now that i've had some time to think about it, I think my anxiety is more about wanting what I put out there to be perfect, like it has to be that perfect project thats just going to be great right out the gate. Not wanting to take the risk and push myself. I guess it comes down to fear, fear of looking bad. Its sort of insidious the way it sneaks in for me. I just have to remember, be present, to the fact that this is something that I do from time to time. Kind of like bio rhythms , I just need to keep practices in place to keep me in the creative flow that way when it does come around again , and it will, i will at least get through it quicker. Thanks agin for sharing. Chris

@marsha-kay-ottum-owen Great , thats the place to be. By continuing to work on your skills your bump starting your imagination and inspiring yourself. I think I can take a lesson from that and just relax and draw. Chris

Thanks all. Feel like I broke through the funk I was in. I think jumping into this forum was a good idea. So in the spirt of sharing I want to show a little blue pencil drawing I did last night in prep for inking. The little image on the lower left was the thumb nail . it's about 1 1/2 ". Thanks again Chris.

Jon Anderson

@c-davies Glad you found a way to push through! The sketch looks good. What's your process after inking?

@jon-anderson Thanks, I'm analog, I ink with Micron or Pitt. I like to use sharpie fine point for my notebook kinda forces me to be committal with my line. The thumbnail is a sharpie. My favorite is the brush , I learned recently watching a Yuko Shimizu tutorial and it's really fun.
I've been away from inking for a while and it's hard to get back into it. Right now I'm practicing inking over drawings from my notebook. I like to scan a page and then print it out on good paper at like 8% opacity so it's really light and then ink over it. You can kinda see the faint print out under the ink in this pic..

Jon Anderson

@c-davies Nice work! I'm still trying build my inking skills but the growing pains still show up.

@jon-anderson Jake's tutorials are great . Theres also "Shane White" who has some really good youtube videos on inking called "The Process". sometimes I like to listen to him in the background when I'm inking.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CH4RmMCMa7I&list=FLJjSpZzsyAJayPfgh6jgZhw&index=131